Title: I Could Use A Drink
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Blog Entry: Hey it's been a long time since I posted. And for some of you, this is the first time you seen my blogs. I gotta say, if you been sticking through this with me, you truly are a glutton for punishment. Nahhh thanks for sticking by me *winks* I appreciate it. I know I haven't written things in a while, and that's all because I been going through some harsh shit lately. I gotta admit when I go looking for drama, I sure as fuck find it. So lets start with the bad so we can end on a good note. Females: I don't get along with them. I never really have....(aside from my best female friend Jae jae)......and if I did, I would prolly have been a great lesbian. The reason I think that females don't really like me, is cause well I am very male in mind. This is also why I get along better with men then I do with women. Women don't like how honest I am, how blunt I am, and how open I am. This of course gets worse when I get along better with their BFs then I do with them. This of course is cause like I said above, I am very male in mind. So when it comes to conversation, I tend to be able to associate more styles and traits with men. Ya know belching, farting, Hooters, motorcycles, Penthouse, guns, women, breasts, parties. :p So recently the females who don't really get along with me, have been assuming some shit about me. This is causing rifts with me and my male friends. And of course I don't expect them to actually side with me. I do expect them to side with their mates, and that is fully understandable. But jesus don't turn a blind eye to their bitchy behaviors just cause you get some pussy and a blow job every now and then. Any woman can do that for ya. With any couple....if your significant other is wrong in any way. Dont bow down and let them get away with it. That just means they can walk all over you and can do no wrong. Tell them they are wrong. Tell them to deal with their problems themselves. Like they say BE A MAN. Males: Now don't get me wrong. All you guys are indeed my people. Love ya all cause you all ain't drama central like chicks are. *Points to self* Yes I am a chick, so I do carry some sense of drama. I admit. But there is one problem I have with you guys. When you aren't sure you wanna be with your women, you need to talk to them about it and why. Talk it out within the relationship. Maybe it can be fixed, but no one outside of your relationship can help it all that much when you hide things from each other. I have always taken great pride about my honesty. Whether it hurts or not, I have always been honest. Currently though I am dealing with a lot of stress I am sure 50% I brought upon myself by over exaggerating the issues. The rest is all thrown in my face. 1. Dealing with people going behind my back and changing things. 2. Dealing with a pain in the tail BF 3. Missing my BF desperately. 4. Artist Block. 5. Being told I should apologize for getting angry at an accusation about myself ongoing for a year now. 6. Losing friends over a communication problem in someone elses relationship. 7. Living in this shitty economy with no job as of yet. 8. Being accused of having vendettas against people 9. Having too many males who "love" me and want to be with me. 10. Watching a great mans dream fade away and not being able to do much about it Some of it I just need to get over, others...someone else needs to get over. Like I will always say, you got a problem with me BRING IT. I fight my own battles and speak my own mind. I don't make people do it for me. You don't like what you hear....TOUGH SHIT. I say what I feel and I will not sugar coat it for anyone. Read any of my blogs to see how true this statement is. On a good note, I am a little happier. My Tiger has been behaving, I been not taking shit from him or anyone. He is being more understanding and trying real hard to be a happy tiger without flying off the handle too much. Even his life seems to be coming together for him. Which is great news. I am a little more calm and I got a bit of artwork done. Working a lot on my details and color work. Doing quite a bit of gift art and personal art. Although I always lose it after 3 pics....then art block :p sucks. On top of getting the artwork done, I have also updated my sites and journals currently featured on 6 websites and about 4 journals and a photobucket. So I am trying a little bit harder to get myself out there. Aside from that here I am. TA DA!!!
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