Title: "You get me closer to god"
Tags: NIN - Closer (Mario Mix)
Blog Entry: Holy sh!t I now feel better... I'm going to enjoy this while I can... no buzz though there should be (just polished off the everclear/dew mixes leftover from Sat night). Ah well that's pry for the better. Might watch some movie on Carter later. Not sure I can stay awake through that but damned if I won't try. Roomie moved out this morning. I pulled a 22 hour day to see him off. MUCH better than last time we parted ways. Last time... well let's just say I drove the 250 miles home in the middle of the night with bloodshot eyes and hurt... time heals wounds I suppose. See the fun thing is now that 250 is something like 90. :D And we parted on good terms...yes much better. I pry would've been more upset about it if I wasn't so damned tired but this is just something new to get used to I suppose. He seems all happy where he is so that rocks. And me? I look for the silver lining... like I can go back to screaming with my headphones on and surfing redtube in the nude on my couch. The ex is returning on Sunday night. Till then it's just me, the toddler and the 5 animals... yes I have 5 animals. And I can even account for all but one of them at the moment and if I know Lily she's hiding in the bathroom. Or my room... Sephie's been in my room for the last month. Not so bad, except she's been peeling the paint off the walls. The ex has been mentioning coming back to my room, but I really don't like that idea. One thing leads to another and such. Not sure what the arrangement is going to look like in the end. There's not a lot of room in either room, but I've gotten pretty used to not having access to Sephie's closet. I found her furry robe earlier though. Pretty happy about that. "I am the needle in your vein, I am the high you can't sustain" Still think NIN 96 and back is awesome. Actually I was digging on Nirvana's Bleach earlier. That's their album that I can listen to start to finish. The rest have lost their appeal. Anyway...excuse my rambling...tired and kinda in la la land at the moment. A "friend" was supposed to come over earlier. Didn't call, didn't show. I'd like to say there must be a good reasonm but I'm pretty sure I know why. And that sucks. But that's why I put friend in heavy quotes. I have no doubts that most friends with benefits scenarios are more benefits than friends. Wow, it's after midnight... can I really make it through a 2 hour movie? Looking more doubtful by the minute. I could seriously pass out right now. It's funny 2 hours ago I had lots to write but now... well you know redtube lol. I'm thinking about making a different LJ...a totally uncensored no names but nothing left out journal. There's is MAYBE one person who will have that URL. I even had a great name for it, but then Friday came and I forgot it. Need to think on that. Need to make some plans for the ex's return. Need to make plans for the weekend. Hmm... need to figure out how to cook all these lovely dinners I had planned (pre-roomies ultimate departure) for 1 and 1/2 people... no she's not a half person but she's all of 3 feet 1 inches tall. Oh hey there's Lily. Lily's my Calico kitty with an attitude. She can be the friendliest thing in the world but she's got a wild side. And she's VERY vocal heh. Roomie didn't like her for the longest time, but by the end she was on her back purring his praises. I picture driving that 90 miles with my entire zoo. Um no... last time I had both dogs in my car the bigger one downshifted my car on me... in the middle of a 50MPH road. Alright time to go, I think I could sit here and write for an hour but nature calls. Ha.. there's that TMIness.
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